Sunday, March 7, 2010
家人？永远？重要？
可能我写了这个文章后，都可能都觉得是我的错或是某人的错。可是，我真的没有诉苦的人了，没有了。有是我常常在想，我的存在的多余的吗？是吗？可是我都不知道？谁叫我不漂亮，没有脑，什么都没有？有时想想就结束我的生命。去找另一个适合我的世界。这个世界台不适合我了，我也是不可以在这样的哭下去。哭是我唯一让我发泄的地方，没有地方可以让我发泄了。我真的很想哭，哭到盲，哭到听不见，我不想听每人的声音，我不想看见我的样子。够了！抽烟真的能让我们开心吗？是的话，我真的宁愿抽烟让我自己开心。有时觉得我在家就是一个你们的发泄桶，佣人，还有。。。不开心没有人发生什么 事？只会骂我是不是心情不好？从来不问问我。我不知道为什么我要把家人看得那么重要？家人真的重要吗？为什么我是他们的家人，他们从来我不我看待重要，我不在，就说真好，静了很多。我要的是这样吗？！我有我的电话，从来不会问我的事情，只会问带了弟弟吗？弟弟吃了吗？小心啊。那我呢？我就是你们的保姆吗？如果是保姆，也会问一句，吃饱了吗？我都没有。他是你们的家人，而我就不是，因为他很会演戏？很会掩饰他。我骂他。说我也是一样。那我的尊严有在吗？他会把我当成姐姐看待吗？不会的！只会当我是傻，苯，可以欺负的姐姐。当我想疼他，像姐姐一样的爱他，可是他就这样的顶嘴，我就要的忍，忍，忍！心情不好只能掩饰，掩饰的我很开心，我很开心吗？每天说我，这个不好那个不好，就不喜欢我。那你去喜欢有脑的，会演戏的。你去吧。我不觉得很委屈，我希望你们可以把我当作家人而已。我不想觉得我的存在是多余的，我希望你们可以想到我，问问我。而不是一直误会我，说我，说我大番薯，没有脑。家人？家人是互相利用的吗？什么是家人？或许在你们的字典的互相利用。我希望不是这样的。
Monday, January 25, 2010
Friday, January 8, 2010
TIREDDD
3more weeks i think.starting my school=[
i was like so happy and excited .i don't wanna stay at home.
i havent finish my homework and 2 books haven't buy.
long time didn't update my blog.and...i feel very tired and sleepy now=[
so hot now.like 34 degrees.i miss malaysia!=[
unhappy with all this.TIREDDDDD
i was like so happy and excited .i don't wanna stay at home.
i havent finish my homework and 2 books haven't buy.
long time didn't update my blog.and...i feel very tired and sleepy now=[
so hot now.like 34 degrees.i miss malaysia!=[
unhappy with all this.TIREDDDDD
Thursday, December 10, 2009
here!
today is 10/dec/2009!2010 is coming.say byebye to my lovely 2009.
2009?its too fast.time is gone too fast...
this week i got my an orientation day.feeling fresh and good.i got alot new frens.there are so KIND to me.really:-:
they asks me to hangout together.and have a plan for my whole holiday.i won't feel looking forward because i know i will spend my holiday at home with my bro and the lovely wall. and my Parent.
this week is their last week. they got their Christmas holiday as well.so i won't happy with them when they are stay at home.
last month, my parent told me that they will helps me to register a phone for me.'THREE"
and this week, i felt too looking forward of my new phone.in M'sia i never got my own mobile.so i feel so happy and can call my friends in m'sia or Aussie. i knew a girl -aditi. She is come from India and she is same age as me...She is funny and i think she is so talkative. LOL.i cannot show her my blog.if she know,she will think that i talking her bad.actually,not aditi.ROFL.
and Annie.Annie is come from China but she born in Japan. She lived in japan for 7 years?maybe?if i right.LOL.and i think she likes her boy friend so much.when 1st time i met her,she told me that she got a boy friend. she is good and kind to me.AND aditi as well.If Annie is same class as me for next year,i will be very Happy and Aditi as well.
Today i got an orientation about Legal Studies. My classmates are local.i met a girl .I tot she is from china. NOPE!is same as me.from Malaysia.but she is from penang. But we got nothing to say.i knew her name is very hard to read and call...
suddenly so miss you -seriously so miss you...
i like colbie coilet so much.if i spell it right.
her song is touch and enjoy...ALL!really nice!good
if not nice...just do what u want to do.LOL.
kidding:P
suddenly feel so regret when i choose legal studies.but the teacher is nice anyway.
what is the difference between anyway and by the way?kidding:P
KIDDINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
2009?its too fast.time is gone too fast...
this week i got my an orientation day.feeling fresh and good.i got alot new frens.there are so KIND to me.really:-:
they asks me to hangout together.and have a plan for my whole holiday.i won't feel looking forward because i know i will spend my holiday at home with my bro and the lovely wall. and my Parent.
this week is their last week. they got their Christmas holiday as well.so i won't happy with them when they are stay at home.
last month, my parent told me that they will helps me to register a phone for me.'THREE"
and this week, i felt too looking forward of my new phone.in M'sia i never got my own mobile.so i feel so happy and can call my friends in m'sia or Aussie. i knew a girl -aditi. She is come from India and she is same age as me...She is funny and i think she is so talkative. LOL.i cannot show her my blog.if she know,she will think that i talking her bad.actually,not aditi.ROFL.
and Annie.Annie is come from China but she born in Japan. She lived in japan for 7 years?maybe?if i right.LOL.and i think she likes her boy friend so much.when 1st time i met her,she told me that she got a boy friend. she is good and kind to me.AND aditi as well.If Annie is same class as me for next year,i will be very Happy and Aditi as well.
Today i got an orientation about Legal Studies. My classmates are local.i met a girl .I tot she is from china. NOPE!is same as me.from Malaysia.but she is from penang. But we got nothing to say.i knew her name is very hard to read and call...
suddenly so miss you -seriously so miss you...
i like colbie coilet so much.if i spell it right.
her song is touch and enjoy...ALL!really nice!good
if not nice...just do what u want to do.LOL.
kidding:P
suddenly feel so regret when i choose legal studies.but the teacher is nice anyway.
what is the difference between anyway and by the way?kidding:P
KIDDINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
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